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May 3, 2026
5/3/2026
ℐ𝓉'𝓈 𝓈𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝓁𝓁 ℐ 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉ℴ 𝒹ℴ 𝒾𝓈 𝓁𝒶𝓎 𝒾𝓃 𝒷ℯ𝒹 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅𝓁𝒶𝓎 𝓋𝒾𝒹ℯℴ ℊ𝒶𝓂ℯ𝓈. ℐ 𝓈ℯℯ 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓂𝓎 𝒸𝓇𝓊𝓈𝒽 𝒾𝓈 ℴ𝓃𝓁𝒾𝓃ℯ, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 ℐ 𝓀𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝒽ℯ 𝓌ℴ𝓃𝓉 𝓉ℯ𝓍𝓉 𝓂ℯ 𝒻𝒾𝓇𝓈𝓉. ℐ 𝒶𝓁𝓌𝒶𝓎𝓈 𝓉ℯ𝓍𝓉 𝒻𝒾𝓇𝓈𝓉.. ℋℯ 𝒽𝒶𝓇𝒹𝓁𝓎 𝓇ℯ𝓅𝓁𝒾ℯ𝓈. 𝒮𝒽ℴ𝓊𝓁𝒹 ℐ ℊ𝒾𝓋ℯ 𝓊𝓅 ℴ𝓃 𝒽𝒾𝓂?
5/6/2026
ℋ𝒶𝓁𝒻 𝓌𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝓇𝓊 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝓌ℯℯ𝓀. 𝒜𝓁𝓁 ℐ 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉ℴ 𝒹ℴ 𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝒶𝓁𝓀 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝒽𝒾𝓂, 𝒽ℯ𝒶𝓇 𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓋ℴ𝒾𝒸ℯ... ℐ 𝓀𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝒽ℯ 𝒽𝒶𝓈 𝓃ℴ 𝒻ℯℯ𝓁𝒾𝓃ℊ𝓈 𝒻ℴ𝓇 𝓂ℯ, ℐ 𝓀𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝒽ℯ 𝓃ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀𝓈 ℴ𝒻 𝓂ℯ.. ℳ𝒶𝓎𝒷ℯ 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓌ℯℯ𝓀ℯ𝓃𝒹 ℐ 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒽𝒶𝓋ℯ 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒸ℴ𝓊𝓇𝒶ℊℯ 𝓉ℴ 𝓉𝒶𝓁𝓀 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝒽𝒾𝓂.
5/13/2026
I have decide to give up on my crush. We were coworkers, everyone kinda assumed something was going on between us. But I don't think he knew people were saying that. We talk once every two weeks. Kinda, maybe one message back and fourth. I always start it. I have moving out of the state, so the chances of seeing him and talking to him in person are now zero. I leave June 6th, and June 1st I'm stopping by my old job to give my fav manager some baked goods. I know he will be there, but idk if I should talk to him or not. Should I just tell him I like him? I mean worst thing that happens is he ignores me..
I know once I leave and no longer see him my feelings will fade.
5/22/2026
On the 16th I decided to tell my crush I liked him. He never responded to me. I did say I was not looking for an answer or anything. But I did not think it would be radio silence. I regret telling him, but I also don't. I am glad I told him, because that feeling of "what if" is gone. I wish we could have a friendship, but it was all on my efforts. He never once reached out to me. Never once started the conversation. We had so much chemistry at work. Or so I thought... Maybe he was just being nice? Because we worked so much together... I sat there for 30 minutes before I sent the damn text... I think I regret it more then I want to admit. I want to take it back, but I can't.. I hate what I have done.. Why does this always happen? Am I that unlovable? I know I'm not pretty, and I am over weight. Why do I always mess everything up?
I am still mid move, so I know I'm stressing really hard right now...
This is obsession... I need to stop..
5/23/2026
WOW! Two posts in one week? Crazy.. Anyways, I move in 14 days! To a new state.. Still no word from him. But that is okay. I'm meeting up with a work friend who knows about everything going on. So we are gonna talk about everything on Monday over a nice sushi dinner! I will def post about it and some sushi pics. Anyways, today SUCKED! My kids were crazy today, and trying to pack everything us has been hell. My MIL is taking stuff out of our totes and hiding them? IDK man, I have been so stressed out, that as a 32 year old I have a bunch of breakouts, am NOT sleeping and just crying. 24/7 just crying...
My husband and I have been together for 11 years, are poly. So he knows about my work crush. He has been supportive. Even Offred to talk to him. NO THANK YOU! It's like when your mom says they will talk to the school about you being bullied. That would make things 10X worse lol. Anyways, may go out drinking tonight. My send some stupid messages, idk yet.
5/26/2026
So I went out last night with a coworker. We got sushi, it was really fun. We talked for like three hours. About work (I no longer work with her) and just everything. My MIL is still blaming my kids and I for her stuff going missing. Half of what she said is missing we have never seen. 11 more days until we move. I am trying to be strong, but it is hard. I am stressed TF out. My hair has been falling out a lot this past month. I have gained a bunch of weight and adult acne. I have been trying top get back to a schedule especially for the mornings. I have been running behind on school drop off and getting the kids ready. It's depression honestly. I just feel so tired, I have trouble waking up and getting up out of bed in the morning. My sleep has been horrible or non existent. I want to try and do like a daily journal or diary. Not on here.
5/28/2026
OMG! My Mil is driving me crazy. More of her stuff is "missing" so me and my kids are being blamed for it. I am so stressed out.. Just 9 more days..